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Another year goes by....
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| Blake Shelton - Austin |
[20 Dec 2006|08:55pm] |
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She left without leavin' a number
Said she needed to clear her mind
He figured she'd gone back to Austin
'Cause she talked about it all the time
It was almost a year before she called him up
Three rings and an answering machine is what she got
If you're callin' 'bout the car I sold it
If this is Tuesday night I'm bowling
If you've got somethin' to sell, you're wastin' your time, I'm not buyin'
If it's anybody else, wait for the tone,
You know what to do
And P.S. if this is Austin, I still love you
The telephone fell to the counter
She heard but she couldn't believe
What kind of man would hang on that long
What kind of love that must be
She waited three days, and then she tried again
She didn't know what she'd say,
But she heard three rings and then
If it's Friday night I'm at the ballgame
And first thing Saturday, if it don't rain
I'm headed out to the lake
And I'll be gone, all weekend long
But I'll call you back when I get home
On Sunday afternoon
And P.S. If this is Austin, I still love you
This time she left her number
But not another word
Then she waited by the phone on Sunday evenin'
And this is what he heard
If you're callin' 'bout my heart
It's still yours
I should've listened to it a little more
Then it wouldn't have taken me so long to know where I belong
And by the way, boy, this is no machine you're talkin' to
Can't you tell, this is Austin, and I still love you
I still love you
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| Out of boredom... |
[20 Dec 2006|08:46am] |
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I don't know why I'm posting, livejournal is dead, but I'm bored. So bored. I have to go meet with people about getting health insurance because ummm ya I don't have any! eeek!
Friday I have to meet with the financial aid people...
and actually Thursday I get my SAT scores back...
January 19th is my last day of high school...
March 19th I plan to start a couple classes at NHCTC-Nashua...
and I'm applying (and praying to get into) University of Texas at San Antonio (also applying at the Austin campus).
Right, so whatever. Later
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| ARGH |
[20 Nov 2006|07:03pm] |
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I would just like to thank all you nobodies ahead of time for not reading this, thanks. Means alot.
I'm currently in a horrible mood. I went from zero to bitch in about 4.3 seconds, all because of one thing: Myspace. A girl I don't know. Why am I angry? Good question. It's surely not out of jealousy for my lame ex boyfriend who screwed me over (good luck specifying, they all did that, minus 1 or 2). Just because all I've done and said means nothing and I'm still dwelling on something that has been over for like a year or something... wow I wish this wasn't happening. I won't give you the emo bullshit because I'm sick of that. I won't tell you I'm sad and lonely because I'm not. I'm angry. I'm pissed off at all the people who have screwed me over in the past and left me worrying about it long after I should be. I don't let go of things that really make a difference to me. You people at one time all made a difference, and as of right now I'm feeling the glum after effects. Thank you for that.
I hate ex boyfriends...
I also am angry that my past has slipped away and everyone who used to be there isn't.
I'm just so frustrated with everyone for no reason because I'm sure everything can be traced back to me, I'm sure it's my fault, always is.
>:0 I can't even explain it. This was a vain attempt. Bye.
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[02 Nov 2006|09:06pm] |
Hello everyone who does not read my journal.
I just wanted you all to know that I miss James. He should not be in Iraq and the president is a dumbass. thank you.
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| Darkness... |
[28 Oct 2006|02:52am] |
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Chris/"Darkness": You randomly popped up in my mind the other day, and I realized I have no way of getting in touch with you... I lost your number and all. I'm only going to be where I am now until January. Leave me a comment, let me know you're still around... k? later.
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[12 Oct 2006|01:38am] |
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Well I don't update much anymore, I see no point since livejournal is dead. I'll do it anyways though...
Basically, I go to school and it's ok. I come home and that's okay. I sometimes take trips to Nashua and that's cool. I've been looking at colleges and I need to apply, except for the simple fact that I have no idea what I want to do with my life, so college would be a blank step. Um... enough said. Later.
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| None? |
[16 Sep 2006|06:22pm] |
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I am so fucking tired that I'm wide awake. My head is spinning like I drank a little bit more than I wanted to, it's a buzz without alcohol or sleep.
Anyways... I got out of the woods this weekend and came home to Nashua. Khiza picked me up from Goffstown, we went to Walgreens and then ate at Uno's, then he dropped me off at mah broz. (a.k.a. my brothers)
At some point, like 10:30 ish Kristen, Kevin, and James came and picked me up (Kristen driving... eek!) and we went to Kevins casa. For some reason he thought it would be appropriate to put on Rocky 4. We watched the giant Russian guy and Sylvester Stallone fight (fast forwarding through other bullshit), me and Kristen reminisced about the strange and absolutely hilarious things that have happened to us in our past together, and then she had to leave at 12 ish. :( .
Once she was gone, James, Kev and I proceeded to play Def Jam: Fight For New York. James did an absolutely wonderful job of getting his ass kicked every single round, yet still consider Xzibit to be his good luck character. Okay... then we watched some MXC where Asians get hurt and it's hilarious, some Boy Meets World, and then Kev wanted to sleep so we left at like 2 ish.
James and I had an absolutely amazing morning (yes, from 2-way too late/early in the morning), driving and parking and such. (I would really prefer if you didn't question that driving and parking scenario). He dropped me back off here at 6:30 ish in the morning... and then he left and I'm never going to see my slurpee again. :(. He's leaving for Iraq soon which is oh so depressing, but he's happy with it I guess, so that's good.
Friday morning I woke up at about 6:15 in the morning, was awake until he dropped me off, I stayed up until almost 7 and then slept until 8 and I'm still up from that.
Today I went to Lowell with Khizer, hit up Brew'd and took a little self-guided tour of the Revolving Museum, which I have been to many times. Umm I've been at my brothers for a while, walked downtown to get my camera from dads shop and such... now I'm going to play WoW but I figured I'd update while I'm in a good mood.
k lataz.
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[08 Sep 2006|02:14pm] |
Well, it's official...
under classmen must suck at all schools.
How annoying.
BUT getting into a drawing and painting class of juniors and seniors even though I don't have the proper prerequisites, well that's just awesome.
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| Goffstown School? yes. |
[07 Sep 2006|09:02pm] |
This school is fucked up. Seriously.
Goffstown Area High School. It's about the size of Sunset Heights Elementary. The workers are on Prozac or something, they never stop smiling and bouncing. It's like I entered Pleasantville or something. Scary shit.
Anyways, the schedules alternate by days, and they call that block scheduling. Bullshit.
My schedule is different because I'm a senior and I'm special.
Mondays, Wednesdays and every other Friday:
Personal Financial Management
Self Discovery (English)
Human Behavior (English)
Go home at 1.
Tuesdays, Thursdays, other Friday:
French 1
Drawing and Painting
Go home at 11.
ohh my how awesome. All I have to do now is submit my letter for early graduation, and most likely I'll be done school in January.
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| Goffstown |
[04 Sep 2006|03:51pm] |
Goffstown is boring...
I have a scheduling appointment Thursday morning, so I start school either Thursday or Friday...
James is coming home to visit, :-D yay I miss him.
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| Un-American? Un-Patriotic? My ass. |
[29 Aug 2006|01:25am] |
Tell me, please...
when did it become Anti-American (Un-American, Un-Patriotic, etc.) to have beliefs different than the person next to you...
To not support a war that we don't understand, and not support the flawless leader who doesn't inform us.
"Take out all the Islamic bastards", yeah, that's American. Peace and religious tolerance, what we're known for right? Considering how our country was founded.
This is bullshit. I support our troops for trying to help, I don't support the war that we're in because 1. War is never necessary, 2. No one can tell us why we're in it to begin with.
Whateverrrrrr
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| Show Me Heaven |
[26 Aug 2006|01:12pm] |
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There you go flashing fever from your eyes
Hey baby, come over here and shut them tight
I'm not denying, we're flying above it all
Hold my hand, don't let me fall
You've got such amazing grace
I've never felt this way
Oh, show me heaven, cover me
Leave me breathless
Oh, show me heaven please
Here I go, I'm shaking just like the breeze
Hey baby, I need your hand to steady me
I'm not denying, I'm frightened as much as you
Though I'm barely touching you
I've shivers down my spine
And it feels divine
Oh, show me heaven, cover me
Leave me breathless
Oh, show me heaven please
Do you know what it's like to dream a dream
Baby hold me tight and let this be
Oh, show me heaven, cover me
Leave me breathless
Oh, show me heaven please
Oh, show me heaven, cover me
Leave me breathless
Oh, show me heaven please
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[16 Aug 2006|11:01pm] |
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So now I say the things I want to say
Sometimes it's better letting go this way
I'll always know
Down in my soul
We really had so far to go
I've given all I had to give
And now it's time for me to live
And I won't look back
And I won't regret
Though hurts like hell
Someday I will forget
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K, wicked tired... leaving early in the morning for a campout until Sunday.
Later
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| Lara Fabian - Givin Up On You |
[11 Aug 2006|09:30pm] |
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Silent and quiet
Again in my life
Far from these moments, I wish I was
Passion and truth
We were about
Before the shadows stole the beat of our hearts
After all we have been through
I can only look at you
Through the eyes you lied to
I'm givin' up, givin' up
I'm givin' up on you
After all if there is no way out
If you cannot stand beside me
If there isn't love there is only pride
I'm givin' up, I'm givin' up this fight
Undo this leash
You say I tied
When only our fears are to blame this time
And what am I to you
Just spit it out
I'm not afraid of the words that you hide
Where do we go
When did it all crash
When did it start to fall apart
Silence and quiet
Passion, the truth
I wish I was, I wish I was
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[10 Aug 2006|11:29pm] |
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In all honesty...
I am so bored right now, and I can't think of anything I should be doing.
Of course, on one of these days that I am busy, I'll think of all kinds of things I'd rather be doing.
On that note...
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there's really no way to end this post. wow.
bye :)
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[09 Aug 2006|10:15pm] |
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Well whaddya know I went out again today!
Bekkie showed up at my house and woke me up at like, noon-1 ish. Bitch. haha :-p, anyways so we went out and about, ran some errands. Then we went to my dads shop where the hott kid Tyler was there, the one who fixes his car. So, well, we stayed for a few :D . We went to Kids Kove, waded in the water and had a woods and pond adventure. Rather interesting, dirty feet and wet pant legs. Upon returning to her house, we decided to watch The Boondock Saints, which I had never seen before. I got confused, her friend came over and we all got distracted and made Zwinkys instead. yeah...
Anyways, tomorrow I'm supposed to be going to get my records and report card from the school, and switching to Goffstown Area High School. I can move whenever I damn well feel like it, which I'm putting off because it's too much like work for me. It will most likely be next week if not this, whenever I get motivated.
So, Bekkies house Friday night but free tomorrow night most likely...
any takers?
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yeah, IM me or call or something along those lines.
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[06 Aug 2006|12:20am] |
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Holiday end,
I'm here once again,
And I'm left alone on the bus with my
Head on the ground,
In hopes that I'm found by you
This time around
The sun will rise soon and tackle the moon
Chasing it still in the sky
All that I've got is tonight
Excuses and reasons,
And now tis the season
For all that I never got right
All that I've got is tonight
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Some people piss me off,
because they are full of shit...
These people, okay this person, I love and hate at the same time, because I can't stand watching what they do to other people.
I, somehow, managed to jump right back into the drama... luckily enough, I'm moving out of Nashua, like tomorrow or something.
I mean, Nashua is kind of all I've ever known since I've lived here since I was 5... but I'll get over it.
Whatever. I don't even like livejournal anymore. I have nothing to say to you people and you have nothing to say that's significant enough for me to read it.
With that said and done, screw you all I'm going to sleep.
Thx k bye :)
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| Basically... |
[04 Aug 2006|08:11pm] |
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My last night in Nashua, besides tomorrow night which I may be busy...
Anyways, tonight ; Movie night with Bekkie
Tomorrow; convention at the Sheraton
Tomorrow night; Out with John <3 or nothing
Sunday; Convention
Sunday night; possibly leaving for Vermont for a week
and then Goffstown... so Nashua is all done now...
Bye guys!!!
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